Hello there, buddies.
I first of all have to make an apology to you guys. I recently went on a 3 week blogging break where I blogged once. So I do apologise for that. The reasons were I had a lot going on with working and heading back to uni that I found I didn't have the time I wanted to write the quality of posts that I usually do. I didn't think it was fair on you guys, and me, to be writing when it wasn't something I was enjoying or that I thought you wouldn't enjoy. So I made the difficult decision to stop writing for a while.
I am now happy to say that this blogging break is over! I have finished work until December and I am now moved in my new house in Plymouth, so I can hopefully get back in to my normal writing routine. I am hoping to write normal posts every day (you have had two today, you lucky bunch), and some specialised posts throughout.
I am also happy to announce that I have two new original several part series debuting on my blog this month. I am hoping to launch my "How It Should Have Ended" series at the end of this month, with a new crime fiction series entitled "Into The Darkness" launching in the next few months. I will write a full synopsis of "Into The Darkness" tomorrow, but this will be a chapter series which will over time form a novel. I am very excited about this, and have the first half of chapter one written! I hope you will enjoy it!
Formal shit over; on with the rant!
So today I will be ranting about people. If you can put your hand on your heart and tell me that you don't get annoyed by people then I call bullshit. People are the most annoying things in the entire world. I am sorry, I love you and everything, but everyone at some point in their lives does something to annoy someone else. Unfortunately I am one of those people who just has almost zero tolerance for people, and gets really angry and certain things all the time.
I have several little annoyances I am going to share with you. I am hoping that I can encourage you to rant about the things that people do that you really cannot stand because otherwise I am going to be alone and feel like a right asshole.
First of all, the most annoying thing that I think people do is eating with their mouths open. I cannot stand it. At all. It is gross. You are not brought up in a zoo, so why would you eat like an animal?! You have manners, do you not?! I do tend to get quite angry when people do it, and often have to leave the room if I can hear someone eating. Don't know why.
Partially linked to this is the fact that a lot of the population seem to lack general manners. For example, not apologising if they walk in to you, or forgetting general life rules. I think this applies more to the younger teenage generation - the current 15/16 year olds. Now if you are this age and you are thinking I am talking a load of shit, then you are most likely the small percentage of that population that are actually polite human beings. However, I think that generation is slightly messed up in some ways. For example, I was sat in McDonald's in Plymouth having a drink with a friend at the end of last year when a woman with a newborn baby came in and sat down. Shortly following her were a bunch of about 16 year olds walked in, beer cans in hand, and started causing a load of chaos. Now call me old fashioned, but drinking when you are 16 is illegal anyway (I know we all did it, but not in a public place in the middle of the day) and I just think the way they were acting was completely out of hand. They then continued to sit next to the woman when the restaurant was almost empty, giving her shit and shouting at her. Then, if things could not get worse, they started pushing and shoving her with her newborn baby in her arms. I am sorry but those people just need a punch in the face. How dare they do that?! Seriously, some people just need to sort their lives out. Jeremy Kyle will be their next stop.
As you all know, I really cannot stand bad grammar or language. It seriously ruffles my feathers when people talk in text-talk or whatever. Seriously. Are people just not educated in proper English these days? Someone please explain to me why so many people just cannot talk in a proper manner.
For some reason, I find the current group of teenagers very frustrating - as you can probably see by my little rant a second ago. They just seem so disrespectful to the older population and seem to think that they are above absolutely everything else. Now I know I am not exactly much older than them, and I still have a lot to learn, but they are just something else. Especially when I used to have to turn some people away from a place I used to work for being underage then claiming that they "have the wrong ID". I am sorry, no. Get some manners.
Then there are those fucking irritating 2 faced and bitchy people. For some reason, this seems to be something that shows itself more in girls. As a rule, I find it really difficult to get on with girls as it is, and most of my friends are actually male, so when people end up being a twat then any trust is literally destroyed in milliseconds. So if you are reading this as one of my friends and you happen to be female, congratulations you aren't an asshole. Bitchy people piss me off because of the fact that 99.9% of the time they will do it behind your back then be sickly-sweet to your face. I mean, grow some balls and be a bitch to my face.
The world's most annoying type of person is the person who says that they will/won't do something then go and do the complete opposite. I think everyone knows a person who does this, if you don't then you are extremely lucky. They are the type of people who fuck up plans that get made at the last minute - I got messed around with some Katy Perry tickets a few years ago the day before after people had an entire year to sort everything out. This type of person is a pain in the ass half of the time, and I am now learning to steer clear of this sort of thing. I never make solid plans with anyone who I know will probably fuck me about. Happy days.
Then we have those lovely selfish people. Don't you just love them? Those people who just do things to benefit them, or only want to know you when they want to. I knew someone like that in my first year at university. Safe to say that I am no longer friends with this person. Bitch.
I also seem to have a little tiny bit of a problem with Justin Bieber (queue hate from Beliebers). I am sorry, but everyone is entitled to their own opinion, Beliebers' just happen to love him whilst I happen to dislike him. I think fame has gone to his head and he is not a good role model for his younger followers. I hope that this moment of pure madness that he is going through is seriously short-lived as it is getting old and this spoiled brat look is not desirable. Sort it out, Bieber.
I also dislike the fact that there are many people who are on the roads these days who simply cannot drive. Like they are seriously dangerous. I am not necessarily talking about people driving too fast, although that does play a role, but even going too slow is dangerous too, y'know? I was driving down a road the other day that has a 60mph restriction on it, and I was going about 50mph as it is a slightly windy and hilly road, so always better to go a bit slower. But there was a guy going under 15mph....15mph. I had to slam on my breaks because he was at the bottom of a hill and I couldn't see him. But that was so dangerous to be going that slow on a road with that limit. There are also those people who just don't pay attention and end up almost going in to the back of people, or just being a hazard. Do not go on your mobile phone when you drive, asshole. I have seen this so many times. The worst was when I saw a woman driving, whilst using her phone, with 2 young children in the car. Responsibility, woman.
I also hate the fact that there are a small proportion of people who act completely different around different groups of people. Like, what is with the split personality? Surely you should just be yourself and not conform to the mannerisms and whatnot of different groups of people. It seriously bugs me.
I do have a slightly petty thing on here in that it bugs me when people say that they don't like Nandos without having tried it. Although I do think that I am slightly biased with the fact that I absolutely adore Nandos. But I mean who doesn't like chicken? Unless you are a vegetarian or something...then I will let you off.
I cannot stand nosey people who want to know what you are doing all the time. The worst one is when you are texting or writing or something and you catch them reading over your shoulder. I am like, "sorry, did you want me to read my private text out loud so you can know what is going on?". If you do this, I suggest that you don't bother, because you are just not cool.
Finally, (I know this has gone on considerably longer than usual, sorry) but when someone cannot grasp the fact that everyone has their own personal space that shouldn't be invaded unless they are invited to, I get seriously irritated. As a rule, I don't like being touched, like at all. So if someone is like all over me, or constantly sticking their head or arms or something really close to me, then I get really uncomfortable. So please don't do it.
And I am going to stop this now because I don't want to bore you.
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Thursday, September 12, 2013
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Inappropriate life rant part two
Hello there, buddies.
The first part of this seemingly continuing series was very popular and it seems that you guys are relating to it quite well - which I am both pleased and not pleased about as I have gone through a lot of shit and I don't like that you guys had to go through it too.
There is a lot of shit going on at the moment which means I could probably turn this rant in to a like 20 episode long thing. If you think that is a good idea then let me know - if not I think it might be time for me to invest in a diary.
I have a feeling that this rant is going to be even more varied and bloody here there and everywhere than the last one, so if you get to the end and understand what on earth is coming out of my keyboard then you get a fluffy rainbow rabbit wearing a sombrero as a prize.
I have also been writing this over about a month so it really is a few chunks of things that have happened fairly recently. So bear with!
Also, I have had shitty internet for ages now which is why I haven't posted in so long - don't hate me.
First of all I would like to thank a few people for putting up with me over the last few weeks as I think I have been a horror to live with and talk to. I want to thank the lovely Vikki for allowing me to be a pain in the ass pretty much 24/7 and complain about pretty much everything to her, and for giving me advice even though she knows I probably won't listen to it. Lots of love going her way. Also to +James and Josh for being pretty much the only people in the world that I talk to these days. They stop me getting caught up in the inter-web and losing the will to live. Then on a less formal note, I want to thank You Me At Six for making awesome music that has been significantly therapeutic over the last few days when all I have wanted to do is scream at the world. Especially Josh Franceschi for having the most beautiful voice in the entire world. Not that they will ever read that, but hey ho. I feel like I am accepting an Oscar...
Ok, I am going to kick this off with the fact that I just hate people. Yup, I hate people. Ok I think I generalised that too much, but at the moment there are certain people in the world who just make me go like this "kdlaksd;lk;alsk" then scream at everything. That has literally been my mentality for the last few days. On that slightly freaky and abnormal note, lets continue.
Branching off ever so slightly from that, I don't understand why people bitch about one person to you but then go act like they are best friends with that one person. I have discovered that if people bitch about someone to you, then it is likely that they bitch about you, too. Long story short, all girls are bitches. Yes this applies to myself, but I am more of the sort of person who tells you if they have a problem rather than go and back stab you. To be honest, since writing this paragraph (about 3 weeks ago) I am now finding that whole situation far too amusing. People have really proven themselves over the last few months so I am so done with people who are just going to give me shit for every single thing I do. So, sorry, but not sorry.
Something that sort of relates to being a student, I strongly dislike it when people are not understanding and whatnot. I have recently been involved in a conversation about issues such as money and stuff where I have said my opinion on certain expensive things and have been completely shot down because of it. I then went on to discuss the fact my loan barely covers my rent and that I see none of it so I cannot afford luxuries that I used to be able to when I had a steady job. Once again I got shot down. Never have I felt so small in my entire life. I felt extremely patronised by that conversation and I will never be able to look at the select group of people in the same way. I do not take kindly to being belittled over something that I cannot help.(Don't worry, I will babble on to my normal self soon).
Do you ever feel really annoyed at someone because they use stereotypes? This is something I am finding increasingly annoying as I grow older. The main few stereotypes I dislike are tattooed people, overweight people and people with disabilities. I am a strong believe in the phrase "never judge a book by its cover". When I hear someone judge someone else because of how they look my brain is like "what the fuck?". The one I find most annoying is the whole tattoo stereotype. I have tattoos. Do I look like a stereotype? No. So why do it?! Seriously? What the fuck is wrong with the world?
The first part of this seemingly continuing series was very popular and it seems that you guys are relating to it quite well - which I am both pleased and not pleased about as I have gone through a lot of shit and I don't like that you guys had to go through it too.
There is a lot of shit going on at the moment which means I could probably turn this rant in to a like 20 episode long thing. If you think that is a good idea then let me know - if not I think it might be time for me to invest in a diary.
I have a feeling that this rant is going to be even more varied and bloody here there and everywhere than the last one, so if you get to the end and understand what on earth is coming out of my keyboard then you get a fluffy rainbow rabbit wearing a sombrero as a prize.
I have also been writing this over about a month so it really is a few chunks of things that have happened fairly recently. So bear with!
Also, I have had shitty internet for ages now which is why I haven't posted in so long - don't hate me.
First of all I would like to thank a few people for putting up with me over the last few weeks as I think I have been a horror to live with and talk to. I want to thank the lovely Vikki for allowing me to be a pain in the ass pretty much 24/7 and complain about pretty much everything to her, and for giving me advice even though she knows I probably won't listen to it. Lots of love going her way. Also to +James and Josh for being pretty much the only people in the world that I talk to these days. They stop me getting caught up in the inter-web and losing the will to live. Then on a less formal note, I want to thank You Me At Six for making awesome music that has been significantly therapeutic over the last few days when all I have wanted to do is scream at the world. Especially Josh Franceschi for having the most beautiful voice in the entire world. Not that they will ever read that, but hey ho. I feel like I am accepting an Oscar...
Ok, I am going to kick this off with the fact that I just hate people. Yup, I hate people. Ok I think I generalised that too much, but at the moment there are certain people in the world who just make me go like this "kdlaksd;lk;alsk" then scream at everything. That has literally been my mentality for the last few days. On that slightly freaky and abnormal note, lets continue.
Branching off ever so slightly from that, I don't understand why people bitch about one person to you but then go act like they are best friends with that one person. I have discovered that if people bitch about someone to you, then it is likely that they bitch about you, too. Long story short, all girls are bitches. Yes this applies to myself, but I am more of the sort of person who tells you if they have a problem rather than go and back stab you. To be honest, since writing this paragraph (about 3 weeks ago) I am now finding that whole situation far too amusing. People have really proven themselves over the last few months so I am so done with people who are just going to give me shit for every single thing I do. So, sorry, but not sorry.
Something that sort of relates to being a student, I strongly dislike it when people are not understanding and whatnot. I have recently been involved in a conversation about issues such as money and stuff where I have said my opinion on certain expensive things and have been completely shot down because of it. I then went on to discuss the fact my loan barely covers my rent and that I see none of it so I cannot afford luxuries that I used to be able to when I had a steady job. Once again I got shot down. Never have I felt so small in my entire life. I felt extremely patronised by that conversation and I will never be able to look at the select group of people in the same way. I do not take kindly to being belittled over something that I cannot help.(Don't worry, I will babble on to my normal self soon).
Do you ever feel really annoyed at someone because they use stereotypes? This is something I am finding increasingly annoying as I grow older. The main few stereotypes I dislike are tattooed people, overweight people and people with disabilities. I am a strong believe in the phrase "never judge a book by its cover". When I hear someone judge someone else because of how they look my brain is like "what the fuck?". The one I find most annoying is the whole tattoo stereotype. I have tattoos. Do I look like a stereotype? No. So why do it?! Seriously? What the fuck is wrong with the world?
As a rule, I tend to not give two
shits about some things in life ‘cause I know that worrying about them is just
going to get me nowhere. But when you are there for someone through everything they put you through, then
they chuck it right back in your fucking face, but still expect you to be there for them afterwards is just a fucking
joke. But wanna know the best bit? I am that fucking mug who will be there,
too. It seems that no matter what shit I get chucked through, I will just be
stupid enough to go running back. Seriously, what is wrong with me? The best
bit is that they clearly know I do it, and know they can basically get away
with murder. Especially the shit that has already gone down. Like seriously. I
need a fucking medal or something. I just can’t seem to help myself. It is just
bringing me down worse and worse every time. I need to stop it, but I just
can’t. Anyone help? The worst bit is when they rub it in your face. One thing
happens and they either lie to you but make it obvious that they’re lying, or
they just continuously drop hint after fucking hint. For example, they say one
thing, then consistently reassure you that it is true, yet a week later admit
they lied. Then say they don’t know what they will do without you and that they
are sorry bla bla fucking bla. Seriously, someone help me because it is just
going to ruin me soon. I am literally on breaking point, here.
Or we have the situation I am
currently facing – not quite a situation as you will see, but I am seriously
lacking words at the mo. I have recently discovered a guy who is so fucking
gorgeous it is unreal. OMG I am seriously trying not to drop any hints on who
this person is because that would be embarrassing, and he might read this….Oh,
God. OK, yeah, hot guy. And he is lush basically. Also note that he is waaaaayyy out of my league and I am
definitely punching above my weight, not that I stand a chance in hell, but hey
ho. Anyways, so there I am chatting away, being completely obvious in
everything I am saying (shock horror, the blunt girl being obvious – I know, I
know) but I think it is safe to say I genuinely stand no chance here. Which is
annoying ‘cause he seems like such a nice guy, too, which makes a nice change
from some of the people I have been with. It is now completely obvious who this
person is if they are reading. Awkward. I am just gonna stop on that bit now.
Weird girly shit over, I have recently discovered the fact that I hate it when people don't say thank you. I am not overly fussed on please's but if someone doesn't say thank you then I will seriously resist the urge to say something sarcastic back to them. You all know what I am like with sarcasm - I just can't help myself. But oh my God, some people are just rude.
I feel like I am blabbering on like my last rant.
Another thing I want to add is that I am getting so fucking irritated at my internet. My internet provider (who will not be named to save my own ass) is so shit. I have had no decent internet for about 3 months now. Safe to say, they will be getting an angry phone call tomorrow.
One thing I am briefly going to rant about is Google Communities. I recently got added to a community by the admin because they liked my posts on here. So naturally I post my new one to their page only to get the admin to both criticise my title and tell me to change it, then to get my name wrong. Number one, you added me to the community so you know what my posts are like, so there was no need for you to tell me to change my title. Number two, how the fuck can you get my name wrong when it is right above the post?! I just thought this was ridiculous. Apparently my title was misleading...this is after they had read my posts and liked them to the extent they want me to share them further. I just got offended more so that they got my name wrong. Is that bad? Safe to say I will not be recommending the community, nor posting any more to it. Such a rude admin.
One thing I am briefly going to rant about is Google Communities. I recently got added to a community by the admin because they liked my posts on here. So naturally I post my new one to their page only to get the admin to both criticise my title and tell me to change it, then to get my name wrong. Number one, you added me to the community so you know what my posts are like, so there was no need for you to tell me to change my title. Number two, how the fuck can you get my name wrong when it is right above the post?! I just thought this was ridiculous. Apparently my title was misleading...this is after they had read my posts and liked them to the extent they want me to share them further. I just got offended more so that they got my name wrong. Is that bad? Safe to say I will not be recommending the community, nor posting any more to it. Such a rude admin.
Oh my God, another thing (I will try make this the last one, but no promises) is that my entire Facebook feed is full of soppy relationship statuses. Like all the time. I am not sure if I just hate them, or that they are making me jealous. But it is starting to bug me.
Anyways I am going to shut up now because I feel like I am boring you.
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Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Inappropriate life rant
Hello there, buddies.
Prepare your brains for one monster of a rant. This is going to be extremely blunt and very harsh to be honest, which isn't my usual style, but I need to let off some steam and you guys seem to enjoy my rants.
There have been several different things that I have realised as I have grown up. My younger readers will probably read the following and think that it is all a load of fucking bullshit, and that it will never happen to you. It is likely that at some point in your life something similar will happen to you. Whether you deal with it in the way I have (by sharing everything with the internet) or deal with it in a different way, but I am afraid growing up sucks. If none of this ever happens to you then you are one lucky fucker, I tell you that.
DISCLAIMER: these are just my opinions and in no way should they apply to everyone else. If you are offended by what I am writing then I am sorry, but please do not take this personally or to heart, I simply need a place to de-stress before I drive myself completely insane. I honestly ask that you really don't take this personally as these are all things that I have experienced either recently or in the past, and they may not apply to your life - remember, everyone is different and people deal with things in totally different manners. It is likely that there will be a reasonable amount of swearing in this post, so this is a warning if you are easily offended. Thank you for reading and understanding. Danielle x
I will start by telling you a little bit about trust. I don't know about you, but trust is generally a very important thing in any relationship whether that be a romantic one or a friendship. When someone breaks trust it is very hard to repair that brokenness. I am a strong believer in second chances, and it is rare that I won't give anyone a second chance in pretty much anything - if I have never given you a second chance than you have clearly done something pretty fucking bad that pissed me off incredibly. I have a very hard time trusting people as it is, so when I do trust someone it is a pretty fucking big deal for me. However, I either am really bad at judging people, or I am just seriously unlucky at life, but I tend to end up trusting the wrong people; this applies in both friendships and relationships for me. The more I have grown older (this makes me sound like an old woman...) the more I am trusting fewer people in my life. I am now really wary of who I fully let in to my life, yet I still seem to be doing a bad job sometimes. I have a very close-knit group of friends now, and I am pretty sure they are stuck with me for life. I would pretty much trust them with anything even though they probably don't appreciate that all the time because I ramble about everything! So I have to say, growing up and trusting the wrong people has probably worked out a bit better for me now as I am wary who I trust, but I am sure that will be a bad move in years to come.
Ok, something that is clearly not working for me, but will never change, is the fact that I wear my heart on my sleeve. Always have, always will. Not to the point where I am all like PDA-ing and there is shit all over Facebook cause I realllllly hate that, it's fucking gross. But to the point where I will openly admit if I like someone, and if I am in a relationship with someone, I like to let them know how much they mean to me, etc. This is quite clearly just fucking up for me to be honest. But what really fucking ruffles my feathers is people who are all like lovey-dovey when it is just you two, then act the complete opposite when they are with people. I'm not on about like all the shitty "I love you" all the time, but the fact that they won't hold your hand, nout. Now that bugs me. I bet I sound like the ultra-bitch right now, eh? I am thinking that I probably should just not act interested, but that won't get me anywhere either!
I have to say I am a bit of a competitive person in general, I like to be the best at the things I do, or if I think I could have done better in something then it will forever piss me off until I can change it. A good example of this is probably my GCSE's. I got what everyone views as "really good grades" but I still think I could have got more than 3 A*s quite easily, but there is nothing I can do about it anymore. See what I mean? I know the likes of +James Martin are the same as we have recently had a conversation about this. But it really gets me nowhere in life. I have learned that I should stop this shit, but it still hasn't happened. Even at uni I am the same. Fuck my life.
I think most my friends would say that I am too caring about everything. I mean literally anything - but we are talking mainly people here I think. I don't care about what people think about me, but more what I think of other people if that makes any sense whatsoever? Which it probably doesn't......I really fucking hate it when people know that you are like this and they use it to their advantage. There have been some points in my life in general that I have felt really used by people. Which fucking sucks, I tell ya. I knew it was happening, yet I still carried on doing pretty much anything they all wanted. Which in hindsight was a bad idea as it got me nowhere. Then when people end up throwing it all back in your face at the end. Like it is as if you never even tried for God knows how long and it is all like "I am putting in all the effort" or "you never do anything for me" ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! I am sorry, but what did I spend the last however long doing? Fuuuuck ooooofffffff.
I also have unbelievably high expectations of my life. No matter how much I know that they are never in a million years going to happen, I still stick by them. They are so unrealistic that dinosaurs will be reincarnated before my plans happen. I won't bore you with all the details of them, but it involves my "love life" (like the sarcasm there?), career, money, the works. The main thing I know is completely unrealistic now is that I really want to go travelling after uni with Vikki and the boys (that sounds like a 70s band) where we take like 2 years or so out and go travelling round the world. But with my ridiculous amount of uni fucking loans, that won't happen until I am 90. Yay.
I am trying my hardest here to not go off on a rant about relationships. But I will do a mini one right now. I used to think that there was such thing as "true love". I was brought up in the Disney fantasy generation where all Disney films implied the fact that there was a Prince Charming who would come and sweep me off my feet. Well, 20 years later I am still fucking waiting. Where is this dude? I have now had the harsh realisation that I don't think anyone will ever be able to put up with me or like me enough to ever marry me *sniff sniff*. I mean, in an ideal world I wanted to be married by 27. That gives me 7 years to find a lush guy, get him to magically fall head over heels for me and marry me. Then do that hard bit and get him to stay with me and be faithful. So where is my Fairy Godmother? I am having a fucking crisis here, woman.
That leads me on to the position I am in life at the moment. Generally I am happy with where I am in life. I have an awesome group of friends and I am studying a really interesting course at a brilliant university where I (shockingly) have a really good social life. But then it gets to the fact I am fucking skint. Now don't go all fucking snobby on me and say that it is my choice etc because I will probably be pissed at you for eternity for being such an idiot. People don't realise that to get the best jobs these days you need a degree. So think before you speak. Money rant over - look at my student rant for that by clicking here.
I am also really shit at taking advice and asking for help. I seem to give really good advice, but I can never take it. If I could then I bet you I would be in a much better situation in my life, but oh well. One day I will learn to take advice about my life, but until that point I should probably learn to deal with the shit I get myself in to.
It has also come to my attention that there is a select group of people in my life who have completely changed over the last four or so years, and not in a good way. After I changed schools when I was 16, I lost a lot of the people who were my close friends at the time. Only a few people actually kept in contact, and I still talk to them now. But since going to uni, I have found that a lot of people's opinions about things and me seem to have changed. I don't think I have changed as a person, but my outlook on life definitely has. For example, I appreciate money a lot more having lived on my own for a year, so I don't like to spend it on unnecessary things. 98% of my friends from where I lived before university didn't go to uni, so they have money to spend (jealous) and so they can do more things. Which sucks for me because I can't really do anything. Don't tell me to get a job, because I have a few after having done 60 applications (where I only got 4 replies). The thing is, people don't want to employ a student who is only here for like 4 months out of 12 as they want someone who is there all year. Which is fucking shit because I really needed money for Freshers Week, but oh well.
Lastly (thank God) I just find that I am going round in circles with everything at the moment. I seem to be having the same conversations day in and day out with my parents who tell me to do something other than sit on my laptop. Or the fact that I still end up getting hurt by people in the long run. Or that I come in to some money and then it goes right back to my mum after I had to borrow money from her. So I am not liking life here at the moment, I am looking forward to going back to university and seeing my buddies!
Well that is all on this completely unnecessary rant about life. I hope I didn't offend any of you - I just really needed to rant.
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Prepare your brains for one monster of a rant. This is going to be extremely blunt and very harsh to be honest, which isn't my usual style, but I need to let off some steam and you guys seem to enjoy my rants.
There have been several different things that I have realised as I have grown up. My younger readers will probably read the following and think that it is all a load of fucking bullshit, and that it will never happen to you. It is likely that at some point in your life something similar will happen to you. Whether you deal with it in the way I have (by sharing everything with the internet) or deal with it in a different way, but I am afraid growing up sucks. If none of this ever happens to you then you are one lucky fucker, I tell you that.
DISCLAIMER: these are just my opinions and in no way should they apply to everyone else. If you are offended by what I am writing then I am sorry, but please do not take this personally or to heart, I simply need a place to de-stress before I drive myself completely insane. I honestly ask that you really don't take this personally as these are all things that I have experienced either recently or in the past, and they may not apply to your life - remember, everyone is different and people deal with things in totally different manners. It is likely that there will be a reasonable amount of swearing in this post, so this is a warning if you are easily offended. Thank you for reading and understanding. Danielle x
I will start by telling you a little bit about trust. I don't know about you, but trust is generally a very important thing in any relationship whether that be a romantic one or a friendship. When someone breaks trust it is very hard to repair that brokenness. I am a strong believer in second chances, and it is rare that I won't give anyone a second chance in pretty much anything - if I have never given you a second chance than you have clearly done something pretty fucking bad that pissed me off incredibly. I have a very hard time trusting people as it is, so when I do trust someone it is a pretty fucking big deal for me. However, I either am really bad at judging people, or I am just seriously unlucky at life, but I tend to end up trusting the wrong people; this applies in both friendships and relationships for me. The more I have grown older (this makes me sound like an old woman...) the more I am trusting fewer people in my life. I am now really wary of who I fully let in to my life, yet I still seem to be doing a bad job sometimes. I have a very close-knit group of friends now, and I am pretty sure they are stuck with me for life. I would pretty much trust them with anything even though they probably don't appreciate that all the time because I ramble about everything! So I have to say, growing up and trusting the wrong people has probably worked out a bit better for me now as I am wary who I trust, but I am sure that will be a bad move in years to come.
Ok, something that is clearly not working for me, but will never change, is the fact that I wear my heart on my sleeve. Always have, always will. Not to the point where I am all like PDA-ing and there is shit all over Facebook cause I realllllly hate that, it's fucking gross. But to the point where I will openly admit if I like someone, and if I am in a relationship with someone, I like to let them know how much they mean to me, etc. This is quite clearly just fucking up for me to be honest. But what really fucking ruffles my feathers is people who are all like lovey-dovey when it is just you two, then act the complete opposite when they are with people. I'm not on about like all the shitty "I love you" all the time, but the fact that they won't hold your hand, nout. Now that bugs me. I bet I sound like the ultra-bitch right now, eh? I am thinking that I probably should just not act interested, but that won't get me anywhere either!
I have to say I am a bit of a competitive person in general, I like to be the best at the things I do, or if I think I could have done better in something then it will forever piss me off until I can change it. A good example of this is probably my GCSE's. I got what everyone views as "really good grades" but I still think I could have got more than 3 A*s quite easily, but there is nothing I can do about it anymore. See what I mean? I know the likes of +James Martin are the same as we have recently had a conversation about this. But it really gets me nowhere in life. I have learned that I should stop this shit, but it still hasn't happened. Even at uni I am the same. Fuck my life.
I think most my friends would say that I am too caring about everything. I mean literally anything - but we are talking mainly people here I think. I don't care about what people think about me, but more what I think of other people if that makes any sense whatsoever? Which it probably doesn't......I really fucking hate it when people know that you are like this and they use it to their advantage. There have been some points in my life in general that I have felt really used by people. Which fucking sucks, I tell ya. I knew it was happening, yet I still carried on doing pretty much anything they all wanted. Which in hindsight was a bad idea as it got me nowhere. Then when people end up throwing it all back in your face at the end. Like it is as if you never even tried for God knows how long and it is all like "I am putting in all the effort" or "you never do anything for me" ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! I am sorry, but what did I spend the last however long doing? Fuuuuck ooooofffffff.
I also have unbelievably high expectations of my life. No matter how much I know that they are never in a million years going to happen, I still stick by them. They are so unrealistic that dinosaurs will be reincarnated before my plans happen. I won't bore you with all the details of them, but it involves my "love life" (like the sarcasm there?), career, money, the works. The main thing I know is completely unrealistic now is that I really want to go travelling after uni with Vikki and the boys (that sounds like a 70s band) where we take like 2 years or so out and go travelling round the world. But with my ridiculous amount of uni fucking loans, that won't happen until I am 90. Yay.
I am trying my hardest here to not go off on a rant about relationships. But I will do a mini one right now. I used to think that there was such thing as "true love". I was brought up in the Disney fantasy generation where all Disney films implied the fact that there was a Prince Charming who would come and sweep me off my feet. Well, 20 years later I am still fucking waiting. Where is this dude? I have now had the harsh realisation that I don't think anyone will ever be able to put up with me or like me enough to ever marry me *sniff sniff*. I mean, in an ideal world I wanted to be married by 27. That gives me 7 years to find a lush guy, get him to magically fall head over heels for me and marry me. Then do that hard bit and get him to stay with me and be faithful. So where is my Fairy Godmother? I am having a fucking crisis here, woman.
That leads me on to the position I am in life at the moment. Generally I am happy with where I am in life. I have an awesome group of friends and I am studying a really interesting course at a brilliant university where I (shockingly) have a really good social life. But then it gets to the fact I am fucking skint. Now don't go all fucking snobby on me and say that it is my choice etc because I will probably be pissed at you for eternity for being such an idiot. People don't realise that to get the best jobs these days you need a degree. So think before you speak. Money rant over - look at my student rant for that by clicking here.
I am also really shit at taking advice and asking for help. I seem to give really good advice, but I can never take it. If I could then I bet you I would be in a much better situation in my life, but oh well. One day I will learn to take advice about my life, but until that point I should probably learn to deal with the shit I get myself in to.
It has also come to my attention that there is a select group of people in my life who have completely changed over the last four or so years, and not in a good way. After I changed schools when I was 16, I lost a lot of the people who were my close friends at the time. Only a few people actually kept in contact, and I still talk to them now. But since going to uni, I have found that a lot of people's opinions about things and me seem to have changed. I don't think I have changed as a person, but my outlook on life definitely has. For example, I appreciate money a lot more having lived on my own for a year, so I don't like to spend it on unnecessary things. 98% of my friends from where I lived before university didn't go to uni, so they have money to spend (jealous) and so they can do more things. Which sucks for me because I can't really do anything. Don't tell me to get a job, because I have a few after having done 60 applications (where I only got 4 replies). The thing is, people don't want to employ a student who is only here for like 4 months out of 12 as they want someone who is there all year. Which is fucking shit because I really needed money for Freshers Week, but oh well.
Lastly (thank God) I just find that I am going round in circles with everything at the moment. I seem to be having the same conversations day in and day out with my parents who tell me to do something other than sit on my laptop. Or the fact that I still end up getting hurt by people in the long run. Or that I come in to some money and then it goes right back to my mum after I had to borrow money from her. So I am not liking life here at the moment, I am looking forward to going back to university and seeing my buddies!
Well that is all on this completely unnecessary rant about life. I hope I didn't offend any of you - I just really needed to rant.
If you liked this post then don't forget to click "Join This Site" on the top left of the page to subscribe!
One more thing before I disappear off my blog for tonight is that I have a person for you guys to meet! His name is Jordan Grayson and he has a YouTube channel! Yay! I'd really appreciate it if you guys could check his channel out and subscribe to him! His videos are awesome, and he is a cutie! If you tune back in tomorrow I will do a post about him so you can find out more! So click here to hop on over there.
Toodle-oo!
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